Friday, January 20

My Three Month Hiatus

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It’s good to be writing again! I can’t even think of the last time my personal life made it hard for me to write. I’ve been blogging since I left AOL all those years ago. That’s a long time!

My website “Bekkie In Wonderland” actually started on Windows Live Spaces around 1990 something. I can’t think of the specific year now. It was a very rough looking site compared to what I have now at Blogger and when I remember those old posts I want to blanch with embarrassment over my writing skills. We all have to start somewhere though.

Windows Live was a good place to meet people and I met many of my best online friends there. Friends I still have to this day (along with all my newer friends here at Blogger.) That was probably Windows Lives' heyday because soon they started dropping all kinds of free social services until they were down to Messenger, profiles and Spaces.

Then Windows Live informed us that they were dropping Spaces in 2009. They offered to transfer our sites over to Word Press and I agreed. I started a Word Press account and waited for my site (and work) to show up. It never did.

I licked my wounds and started blogging on Word Press. Hated it! I like to have my animated gifs and Word Press wasn’t having it. Also I was using Windows Live Writer (I’m using it now) and although it worked with Word Press too, I just didn’t like the fit.

It was the best thing that ever happened to me in my blogging career because in 2009 I wrote my first and last blog of the year on Blogger. My writing and my website have improved greatly since those fumbling early days and I have a website that I’m actually proud of now. So where have I been lately?

In January of 2012 I had a change of eyesight and found out I had developed an ocular hole in my right eye. Everything turned out fine but it was hard work and a frightening experience. I worked very hard to get that hole closed after surgery.

The end of November I noticed another change of eyesight. It was disheartening to say the least. I got pretty depressed and quit writing. I knew the hole had opened again and I’d have to go through it all again. No surgery is a piece of cake.

When I went to see Dr. Lam she told me that it had indeed opened and that I was one of 6% that had it happen again. She was surprised it had happened so fast. I had surgery again before Christmas.

I was so worried about my eyesight. I don’t need to really say it but eyesight is so precious. Losing it even in one eye is not an option I wanted to explore anytime soon.

After the gas bubble got smaller I began to be able to peek over it. I saw black and white spots all over the place. Even though it was one eye I could see them with both eyes. I decided it was better than being blind, and thought they must be permanent.

Last Monday I went to Union City to see Dr. Lam with a heavy heart. My eyesight seamed worse and the spots were everywhere I looked. I sat in silence during the ride soaked in my sullen thoughts.

Not only was the hole gone, but during surgery my doctor removed the tissue that was pulling and causing the hole to return. She also told me that the spots were only temporary caused by the gas bubble rubbing against the iris. (I didn’t have spots at all after the first surgery.) The nurse had tested my eyesight early in the visit and I was told my eyesight had actually improved.

I was dumbfounded. Then I experienced extreme happiness for the first time in what seemed like forever! I even let out a whoop while still at Kaiser. I’m keeping all my digits crossed that the hole doesn’t come back again. Did I tell you my eyesight is better??!! What an emotional merry go round I’ve been on in the last year.

The sight in my right eye isn’t perfect but I can see. If I’m looking at a line with that eye it will have a kink in it and words can swim around but if I’m patient I can read it. Also if a person is far away or the light is dim, one side of their face looks like a monster. (Yeah it’s hard to explain.) Actually my brain lets me see fine with both eyes. I feel like I won the eyesight lottery!

I will be posting regularly now and things are getting back to normal again. I really enjoy working on this website and I’m happy to be back. Thanks for all your support through this and I hope you will come and visit me soon.

Back, to Wonderland!

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Sunday, January 15

Eye Will Be Offline Having Surgery

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I like to try to blog once a week or more but recently I haven’t been blogging on a daily basics at all. This is because I found out that I have a serious eye problem and need an operation right away due to Macular Degeneration. There are two kinds of Macular Degeneration, wet and dry. The dry form is by far the most common type and doesn’t require surgery. The wet form is much less common, but it comes on more quickly and can become severe.

Lucky me because I have the wet form and I am not a brave person.Caution

 


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Photobucket  The wet form accounts for only about 1 out of 10 cases of Macular Degeneration. It can cause serious vision loss within months or even weeks. People who have the wet form have the dry form first.

Photobucket  In either the wet or dry forms of the disease, one eye may seem to be affected while the other remains unaffected for a period of time. During that time, the healthier eye may compensate for the affected eye. However, in most cases, if one eye is affected the other eye will develop Macular Degeneration in time, too. 


My eyesight has been pretty good for this ageing Hoosier. Anything up close is blurry without drug store glasses but I still have good vision when looking far away. I had no vision problems that I had to worry about and sometimes still could see close up on a “good day.” 

About a month ago I noticed an eyesight change. My eyes seemed to be growing more tired while watching TV, reading, blogging, etc. I could still see just fine but questioned my vision change. Since it wasn’t something I could put my finger on, I chalked it up to my eyes getting worse with old age. Vision changes can hide a serious problem so I decided if it got worse I’d go to the doctor.

One night when my eyes were really bothering me I put my hand over my right eye; no problem my sight was fine. Then I tried the left eye….OMG! I could see with it but I noticed right in the middle of my sight I could see a problem. Especially when looking at a straight line, I saw a kink in it. Also when looking at a person’s face the left side of their face looked distorted. I had no black spots in my vision and I could still see fine at night but obviously there was something seriously wrong.

After going to my doctor he referred me to an Optometrist who told me that some of the vitreous gel in the back of my eye turned to fluid and that was why my vision had changed. He said it was due to old age, told me not to worry about it and referred me to a Retina Specialist Dr. Lam. This is when things got serious; I got my diagnosis and she said I had to have surgery as soon as possible.

This last Monday I had 3 appointments to get set up for my surgery which will be January 19th and I just got a call from Kaiser today ( telling me it will be at 1PM. I wish they would put me to sleep for the operation but I have to be awake and this will be the first surgery I ever had like this. I am petrified at the thought of being awake during the surgery and just hope they have some strong-ass medications so I’m not at all aware of what’s going on!

I don’t know how my sight will be when this is all said and done but our sight is one of the most important senses we have. I would rather loose a lot of other functions then my sight. Even one eye would be acceptable to me. My grandmother (bless her lovely soul) lost an eye to cancer and took it like the trooper that she was. She was no young lady either; in her 70’s when it happened and working at an old folks home part time. She was working with people as old or older than she was and did it with grace. She was an awesome woman.  


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♦ The retina is a thin lining of nerve tissue on the inside back wall of the eye. The macula is the center of the retina. It is the part of our vision process that makes possible recognizing faces, reading, and driving a car.

♦ Symptoms of wet macular degeneration may include loss of central vision and visual distortion. For instance, a straight line may appear wavy or a small object may seem to be farther away than it really is.

♦ Macular degeneration doesn't cause total blindness. Peripheral vision may not be affected, but central vision, which is used for activities such as reading, watching television, and doing close work, is.


Then there’s the after eye surgery torture! OMG! I have to use this therapy device that keeps my head pointing down (like you see below) for a week OR MORE. That’s 24/7 folks; eating, watching TV, going to the bathroom, riding in a car, or anything that keeps my head in this face-brace contraption.

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Bed time will be fun! I need sleep so I have to sleep (if I ever sleep again) on my stomach with a board-thing stuck between the mattresses holding the face-brace contraption on it. As you can see in the picture above. So comfortable.

They think they have a plan so you don’t go completely insane. The face-brace contraption comes on this folding chair that has a built in table and a two-way mirror. They expect me to spend most of my time in it so I can watch TV, read, (oh my aching back) and try to eat with my face down like that. I’m sure straws will be in order.

24/7 For At Least One Week!

If I don’t use this stuff and keep my head just like they tell me then the gas bubble they inject into my eye will not float to where it belongs and fix my eye. If I screw it up, I get surgery again, mess up my sight more plus all the costs that aren’t covered by insurance.

Oh, did I mention that my face-brace contraption (and comfort items) costs $20/day (at least) and my insurance (Kaiser) doesn’t pay for it? Wave bye-bye to aftercare.Hello From Nurse


I have always been an artist and my love of beauty, hell my love of life has everything to do with what I see! Then there’s “Blu” my beloved sports car that I adore driving! I almost lost my license in 2010 due to a medical problem and I live to drive. (Not a typo).

How am I going to blog and be online? Not easily even with a two way mirror I’d say. As you can see from the images above it’s going to be hard to use my computer AT ALL. Bummer! My computer is not a lap top. Big sigh! Being busy getting ready for this has put me behind in my writing. Something I miss when I can’t do it.

I really shouldn’t be whining; I mean it’s not cancer or other painful, horrible and fatal diseases people get every blink of an eye. It’s just another crisis in the life of Rebecca Del Sanchez and she’s had so many in the last 2 years. I don’t use my blogs to complain but it’s time for me to have a good year. I just want to enjoy my life as much as I can. It feels like a huge bolder is on my chest and if that bolder was just a bit smaller, well then managing it would be a little easier and I could catch my breath for once!

Dr. Lam assures me that she’s done this surgery many times before and as a team we can do this. I just worry if it’s so important to keep my head like that (and the gas bubble stable) that I should be in the hospital a few days afterwards. You know how it is these days everything is outpatient! Organ transplant? No problem, have you in and out in a day! Yes, you can wear your 5 inch heals when you go home. Tee hee!

Today I’m just trying to chill out and prepare for Thursday. I wrote this for here but am posting it on Bekkie In Wonderland too so I can get my news out with less work.

I am taking a brake from being online until my procedure is done and heals. I pray my sight is at least this good when I am finished so I can come back and do all of the many things I enjoy doing! And get my head out of that torture device so I can live and eat like a human being again!

Pray for me if you will and I’ll be back ASAP!

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Sunday, January 1

Your Résumé Please?

I once tried a different approach to a résumé. I was applying at Sony in Foster City to be on the phones for their PlayStation Game Division. At the time I had a Space on Windows Live so I decided to do another Space (website) as a résumé for Sony.

I made my website all about Sony. I even did research on them and blogged about a few new things happening at their company. I had pictures of their offices and of course my information was craftily placed in an orderly manner around the website.

It was awesome! And I never heard a peep from them!

So I ran across some of these résumés that not only worked for others but are very clever and artsy to boot!

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This is a Wakuda Studio résumé and shows how effective the military cloak can be.

 

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This is the perfect example of an eye-catching and attention grabbing résumé. This résumé represents the life of the artist in different blocks that is easy for the employer to skim through.

 

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This machine-like résumé shows the employer that they can expect nothing else but initiative ideas from the artist.

 

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A unique, iconic way to describe the whole professional’s life and growth in a visual nutshell.

 

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This résumé has been created by Adam Stephenson and shows the beauty of vintage style.

 

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Another beautifully detailed artistic résumé explaining the key attributes of the artist.

 

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This unique résumé shows the creativity of the artist.

 

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This unique style of a résumé shows the human mind supremacy of thinking out of the box.

 

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This menu style résumé is full of lavishness and offers a thorough presentation.

 

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Here the artist presents a wonderful job hunting style in this résumé. This is a masterpiece of work.

 

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Using  colorful office products and his information this style résumé is a masterwork of stylish thinking.

 

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This old style of graphic artwork shows the worth and skills of the artist.

 

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This is a combination of affectionate letters and presents the lovely thoughts of artist in a visual nutshell.

 

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This is a Google earth oriented résumé. It is spread on the earth map and shows the density around the globe.

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I wondered after my sad attempt at my website résumé if anyone else had tried something like it and now I know.

Somehow it makes me feel a little better about what happened to me. Remember, not all companies will be excited to receive creative résumés.

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