Sunday, January 15

Eye Will Be Offline Having Surgery

I like to try to blog once a week or more but recently I haven’t been blogging at all. This is because I found out more about my serious eye problem and need an operation right away due to Macular Degeneration. 

There are two kinds of Macular Degeneration, wet and dry. The dry form is by far the most common type and doesn’t require surgery. The wet form is much less common, but it comes on more quickly and can become severe. Lucky me because I have the wet form and I am not a brave person.

The dry form accounts for 9 out of 10 causes of Macular Degeneration. It develops slowly and causes central vision to become dimmer or more blurry over time. It usually doesn’t cause severe vision loss unless it turns into the wet form.
The wet form accounts for only about 1 out of 10 cases of Macular Degeneration. It can cause serious vision loss within months or even weeks. People who have the wet form have the dry form first.
In either the wet or dry forms of the disease, one eye may seem to be affected while the other remains unaffected for a period of time. During that time, the healthier eye may compensate for the affected eye. However, in most cases, if one eye is affected the other eye will develop Macular Degeneration in time, too.

My eyesight has been pretty good for this aging Hoosier. Anything up close is blurry without drug store glasses but I still have good vision when looking far away. I had no vision problems that I had to worry about and sometimes still could see close up on a “good day.”

About a month ago I noticed an eyesight change. My eyes seemed to be growing more tired while watching TV, reading, blogging, etc. I could still see just fine but questioned my vision change. Since it wasn’t something I could put my finger on, I chalked it up to my eyes getting worse with old age. Vision changes can hide a serious problem so I decided if it got worse I’d go to the doctor.

One night when my eyes were really bothering me I put my hand over my right eye; no problem my sight was fine. Then I tried the left eye….OMG! I could see with it but I noticed right in the middle of my sight I could see a problem. Especially when looking at a straight line, I saw a kink in it. Also when looking at a person’s face the left side of their face looked distorted. I had no black spots in my vision and I could still see fine at night but obviously, there was something seriously wrong.

After going to my doctor he referred me to an Optometrist who told me that some of the vitreous gel in the back of my eye turned to fluid and that was why my vision had changed. He said it was due to old age, told me not to worry about it and referred me to a Retina Specialist Dr. Lam. This is when things got serious; I got my diagnosis and she said I had to have surgery as soon as possible.

This last Monday I had 3 appointments to get set up for my surgery which will be January 19th and I just got a call from Kaiser today ( telling me it will be at 1PM. I wish they would put me to sleep for the operation but I have to be awake and this will be the first surgery I ever had like this. I am petrified at the thought of being awake during the surgery and just hope they have some strong-ass medications so I’m not at all aware of what’s going on!

I don’t know how my sight will be when this is all said and done but sight is one of the most important senses we have. I would rather loose a lot of other functions then my sight. Even one eye would be acceptable to me. My grandmother (bless her lovely soul) lost an eye to cancer and took it like the trooper that she was. She was no young lady either; in her 70’s when it happened. She was awesome!

The Eye

♦ The retina is a thin lining of nerve tissue on the inside back wall of the eye. The macula is the center of the retina. It is the part of our vision process that makes possible recognizing faces, reading, and driving a car.
♦ Symptoms of wet macular degeneration may include loss of central vision and visual distortion. For instance, a straight line may appear wavy or a small object may seem to be farther away than it really is.
♦ Macular degeneration doesn't cause total blindness. Peripheral vision may not be affected, but central vision, which is used for activities such as reading, watching television, and doing close work, is.

Then there’s the after eye surgery torture! OMG! I have to use this therapy device that keeps my head pointing down for a week OR MORE. That’s 24/7 folks; eating, watching TV, going to the bathroom, riding in a car, or anything that keeps my head in this face-brace control in a face down postion. This is to keep the gas bubble on the healing surface.

Bedtime will be fun! I need sleep so I have to sleep (if I ever sleep again) on my stomach with a board-thing stuck between the mattresses holding the face-brace contraption on it. So comfortable.

They think they have a plan so you don’t go completely insane. The face-brace contraption comes on this folding chair that has a built-in table and a two-way mirror. They expect me to spend most of my time in it so I can watch TV, read, (oh my aching back) and try to eat with my face down like that. I’m sure straws will be in order.

24/7 For At Least 10 Days!

If I don’t use this stuff and keep my head just like they tell me then the gas bubble they inject into my eye will not float to where it belongs and fix my eye. If I screw it up, I get surgery again, mess up my sight more plus all the costs that aren’t covered by insurance.
Oh, did I mention that my face-brace contraption (and comfort items) costs $20/day (at least) and my insurance (Kaiser) doesn’t pay for it? Wave bye-bye to aftercare.

Freaking Out Now

I have always been an artist and my love of beauty, hell my love of life has everything to do with what I see! Then there’s “Blu” my beloved sports car that I adore driving! I almost lost my license in 2010 due to a medical problem and I live to drive. (Not a typo).

How am I going to blog and be online? Not easily even with a two-way mirror, I’d say. As you can tell it’s going to be hard to use my computer AT ALL. Bummer! My computer is not a laptop. Big sigh! Being busy getting ready for this has put me behind in my writing. Something I miss when I can’t do it.

I really shouldn’t be whining; I mean it’s not cancer or other painful, horrible and fatal diseases people get every blink of an eye. It’s just another crisis in the life of Rebecca Del Sanchez and she’s had so many in the last 2 years. I don’t use my blogs to complain but it’s time for me to have a good year. I just want to enjoy my life as much as I can. It feels like a huge boulder is on my chest and if that bolder was just a bit smaller, well then managing it would be a little easier and I could catch my breath for once.

Dr. Lam assures me that she’s done this surgery many times before and as a team, we can do this. I just worry if it’s so important to keep my head like that (and the gas bubble stable) that I should be in the hospital a few days afterward. You know how it is these days everything is outpatient! Organ transplant? No problem, have you in and out in a day! Yes, you can wear your 5-inch heels when you go home. Tee hee!

Today I’m just trying to chill out and prepare for Thursday. I am taking a break from being online until my procedure is done and heals. I pray my sight is at least this good when I am finished so I can come back and do all of the many things I enjoy doing! And get my head out of that torture device so I can live and eat like a human being again!

Pray for me if you will and I’ll be back ASAP!

Keep On Bloggin’!


  1. You can do it Bekkie, I know you can. Take care, I hope for you that everything will turn out fine. You must believe that, and don't get frustrated. Hope to hear from you soon.

    1. Thank you Horst! I appreciate your caring about my eye surgery; you are so sweet! I won't get frustrated and you will hear from me soon! Big hug! Have a great week! ♥

  2. Thinking of you, my friend. Blessed be. Love, always, cat.

    1. Always have you on my mind too Cat. I hope the rest of your week is as wonderful as you are my friend!

  3. A Big warm hug wrapped with all my love
    Just for you It’s Hug Day January 21st..
    Have a nice weekend..
    Night Lady

    1. Love you too Nicki my talented friend. I hope your week is going well.

  4. Bekkie I hope you came through your surgery OK dear. I have dry eye, had it for years & I have to use artificial tears several times a day...
    I have faith you will be OK hun. I will be here for you when you get back...
    Good luck & good health. love you dear... hugs

    1. Doris is your site gone or what? You are missing from my Followers on both sites and I miss you! I hope you get your bogspot back on or let me know where you are blogging now. After the doctors on the 15th I'll blog about how my eye is doing. Luv and miss you!

  5. Bekkie I am so sorry, I have only just found this blog. Sending you all the very best wishes, hope to see a blog from you soon. Sending you big hugs and lots of love, take care my friend xxxxx

    1. My eye is still healing but I am going to start blogging as usual next week (or maybe sooner.) I miss it and I haven't been able to read any blogs I'm Following so I need to catch up big time! Missed you and what you have to say. Please be patient, the gas bubble is still in my eye and I can't wait until it's gone! I've been losing Followers because of my medical leave and that hurts! Thanx for hanging in there with me my sweet friend! Tomorrow is already Friday, OMG! Lol! Luv you much too!

  6. Just dropping by to tell that I'm thinking about you, Bekkie. Wishing you well, my friend. :) Love, cat.

    1. I really appreciate it too Cat! Have a nice week and big hug!

  7. Blessings my friend.

    I am glad you made it through the surgery. I hope you have some good support with you as this time can be very scary. I am with you, trust me I can be a big chicken.

    Keep your head up and remember even when you feel like you are alone you are never truly. thank you for stopping by and sharing some of your life with me. I have responded to you there but thought I'd come by to tell you have a splendid week.


    1. Thanx Rhapsody I will find out more about my eye on the 15th so I'll blog about what's going on afterwards. I am so glad we are friends it's been so lovely getting to know you. Hugs!


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